New shoes

I am proud to announce that I bought a pair of new shoes yesterday.

Old shoes (looks very gay)

My old shoes is still quite new and it's not even 6 months old yet but somehow I don't really like the light brown colour It's too flashy and make me look like a sissy. Plus the shoe laces unties easily, it's like I have to re-tie my shoe laces every 30 minutes when I'm walking with it.

Actually It's just my lame excuse so that I can buy a brand new shoe ha ha!

New shoe/army boots

Unlike some women who buy shoes like every 2 month or so, we guys normally buy shoes like once every 2 or 3 years. So naturally we tend to choose our shoes very carefully since we'd be wearing it for quite some time. It doesn't matter if it's a bit expensive, the important thing is it is of good quality. I've been wearing Black Hammer shoes for the last 4 years and I'm quite happy with them. I like Black Hammer safety shoes cause they're built tough and long lasting. I usually bought the ones with steel plate in the middle so that I can walk on nails and sharp objects just like that.

I chose a dark khaki colour cause it looks more masculine and tough. My last shoe costs around 7o bucks and the new shoes 130 bucks. A bit expensive but I think it's worth it cause I'll be wearing it for the next 3 years or so.

I also have this ritual of wearing any new shoes that I just bought indoors, you know just to get the feel of it before I use it outside. I would walk around the house, doing chores and stuff with my shoes on for an hour or two. Sometimes I even sleep with my new shoes on. Linda finds it very weird at first but she has learned to accept this unique ritual by now. And that's all people, TENNN HUT!!

There goes the neighbourhood

After much deliberation, we have decided to move to a new place in Taman Universiti, Seri Kembangan yesterday. We started cleaning the house first thing on Saturday so that we could just move right in the next day. Just our luck, our new neighbours chose the very same day to hold their daughter's wedding. They've already set up tents and tables right in front of our homes when we got there and like any good Malaysian would do, we had a little friendly chit chat and they sportingly agreed to remove the tables for a while so that we can move into our new home on Sunday.

Linda and I started packing untill late past midnight on Saturday. I've decided not to carry along any useless stuff into our new home and make sure we only pack what's really neccessary and threw out the rest. As a result, we end up with half the load we had since our last time. The movers came as early as 8 in the morning on Sunday. Linda's younger brother, Yo and I took turns to transfer all the boxes and stuff up and down from the 3rd floor. I've never felt this tired for ages. The first half an hour I was still wearing my singlet but on the last half an hour I felt so hot and sweaty, I just went topless and ran around half naked up and down the stairs. Fortunately the girls on the 1st floor was not up yet that morning, else they'd go ga-ga seeing my hot body ha ha!

It took us an hour and a half to load all our stuff into the lorry but only about 25 minutes to unload it back at our new place. As always, our 2 year old Adam Farihin became the biggest casualty. He got in everybody's way, got knocked around by people and bumped into stuff all over the place. Poor Adam, I know he's just trying to help but he became quite a nuisance instead. Later in the afternoon we went shopping at Tesco in Puchong cause we needed a lot of stuff for our new home and we spent like nearly 400 ringgit on groceries alone yesterday.

Our neighbour's wedding dinner only starts around 8 in the evening yesterday. I was rather alarmed when they started playing really loud music in front of our house. True enough, my fears were justified when they continued playing those loud all through the night. The music was so loud it's like hearing aeroplanes taking off. Now imagine standing there on the runway for 5 hours straight. That's how long we were forced to endure the blaring loud music last night. I tried to ignore them at first out of good neighbourly spirit but after 5 hours, it was just too much for anyone to take. The music only stopped by 1.30 in the morning when some of our Chinese neighbours knocked some sense into those idiot's head. Well, they didn't literally do that but i did saw them gathering in front of my house. Let's just say I'm not so fond of Indian weddings and Indian people in general right now. Plus I'm seriously considering boycotting our regular mamak place or sundry shop or barber for the next few weeks because of that. I know not all Indians in Malaysia is a jerk like them, but last night was simply dreadful. They didn't really make a good impression on our first day there.

I woke up this morning with a slight headache because of last night and feeling slightly feverish. One thing I noticed there wasn't a single mosquito last night. That's like yay! My neighbour did mention there's hardly any mosquitoes around there but I never took them seriously then. I've never lived anywhere where I don't have to light up a mosquito repellent every night. This is unbelievable!

Again we have to send Adam to a new nursery today. We did took him to his new nursery on Sunday so that he can familiarize a bit with the place but only for a while though. We were preparing for the worst this morning cause judging from past experience, Adam would cry out loud every morning for nearly a week when we first leave him at his last baby sitter. It just broke our hearts to see him crying like that and were expecting the same this time. But to our pleasant he was perfectly okay this morning. He didn't cry or try clinging to us when we leave him there. It's like he understood every word my wife Linda said to him yesterday when she said we're leaving him at a new place and all. I'm so proud of Adam Farihin today, I almost cried. I know he loves making friends with other kids even those older than him and there's quite a few other kids there at the nursery. I hope he's doing all right at the moment. Adam you got to be strong now, don't go around bullying the other kids too much and don't give that new kakak a hard time ya!

New nursery

All in a day's work

23 January 2007

Somewhere around Selangor

7:30 am

Sigh, another early day at the office. As always I'm the first one to get here today. Nobody else is crazy enough to come to office this early. Not that I couldn't come later. Linda sacrificed on her part now it's my turn (?) .

Even Ujang is not here yet. So hard to find a decent eatery/restaurant around Serdang/Seri Kembangan in the morning. Usually I'll buy a pack of nasi lemak at the stall behind UPM's mosque. It's wrapped in banana keaves and the supplier made the effort to separate the head of the anchovies from it's body. I don't like eating anchovies with their head still attached. The sambal is good too. A bit spicy, just to my liking. Sometimes I'll stop by another stall at padang. There the nasi lemak is also quite good and there's more variety of lauk to choose from. Normally I'll have it with ayam goreng berempah (my fave) or sambal kerang (also my fave). But normally we don't have the time to stop anywhere let alone do a detour to padang so I didn't go there often.

My other option is to have nasi lemak at Restoran Nizam. At first the food was quite allright over there but then the quality detiorates with time. Gradually even their nasi lemak is served cold. Today they stopped serving fresh nasi lemak all together and made those little nasi lemak packs wrapped in brown paper which is quite tasteless. That's why sometimes I went to Wakaf Jelira another restaurant located some 2 blocks away from my office. The owner hails from Kelantan and there, they serve nasi lemak plus nasi kerabu. Nasi kerabu is that blue-ish coloured rice mixed with vegetables and a few more stuff made of fish. The odd thing was, the nasi kerabu served at Wakaf Jelira does not have that special brown sambal that usually goes together will regular nasi kerabu. When I ask the owner where's the sambal she just said: "What sambal? You'll just eat that with some budu.." So I thought okay, budu is great with nasi kerabu but I still want my sambal! No nasi kerabu is complete without that special sambal. Nevertheless I did eat her nasi kerabu a couple more times before I got tired of it. Before this i usually have breakfast with Ujang at Sithik Maju restaurant located right behind our office. The roti canai there is okay but the nasi lemak is absolutely dreadful! What's more the place is cleanliness is questionable so I stopped going there all together today.

8:15 am

Waited this long for somebody to unlock the doors. Usually Ujang would come by 8:00 am or Abang Din will show up with his Kawasaki ZZR another 15 minutes later. There's about 8 people who holds they key to my office but normally only two of them come early. Once I asked Abang Din for my own set ok keys so I can come early everyday and not wait for everybody to come before I can go in. Like always his answer would be: "you're not even confirmed yet, so you can't hold any keys..". Always the same not-confirmed excuse. I can't take any AL cause I'm not confirmed, I have to come early after Raya cause I'm not confirmed, I can't use the toilet cause I'm not confirmed, yak yak yak yakk. I know he's just kidding with me but sometimes I just took it personally what Abang Din said. I felt I've contributed so much to the company. I did my job well, never say no to what my boss asked me to do, I'm always the earliest staff to come to office everyday not to mention I just took 3 days of leaves (no mcs) the whole 5 months of working here. If that's not good enough then I don't know what is.

8:20 am

If I didn't stop anywhere, I'll have my packed nasi lemak or whatever I bought on the way to office. Then I will check my e-mails, check out my Friendster's page, read the news and read a few people's blog.

8:30 am

Made my daily morning visit to the rest room. On the way there I usually met Hanum or Ipah or Hany and make fun or tease them a bit untill they started yelling at me ha ha! Just kidding. I do tease them once or twice a day but nothing too serious. It's just me, I can't help teasing my female co-workers.

9:00 am

By this time then I finally check my IN letter tray for any work to be done. Today for example we recieved a distress call from a company in Subang saying one of their pc is attacked by spywares. So I thought owh okay, spywares shouldn't be a problem for me. I ate spywares for dessert, it's just peanuts.

10:00 to 11:00 am

I can go to the clients office at 9:00 am but then I'll be stuck in a traffic jam on the LDP for hours. It's simply not productive to go out early only to get stuck in traffic jams. So I hang around a bit more just waiting for the right moment to blast off. But I do go out early if my boss is around in the morning :).

11:30 am

Arrived in Subang. The client's office is located on the 2nd floor so I had to climb a few stairs up. Found the pc and true enough it was infected with some nasty spywares. First task: find the name of the spyware so I can get the neccessary programme to remove it. Turned out this spyware is so wicked, it doesn't even has a name! I clicked on the bleeping icon but nothing come out. Usually spywares will open a browser window directing us to the manufacturer's web site. Hmm, think I'll check for viruses first.

11:45 am

This pc is infested with viruses! Updated their TrendMicro and found 1011 infected files. TrendMicro antivirus software to me is a real waste of money. Sure they can detect all the latest viruses but they can't clean or delete most of the infected files. Out of 1011 found, only 121 infected files was cleaned or deleted. If you ask me, I'd use McAfee antivirus anytime. It can detect and clean/delete most viruses and all the cool geeks out there are using it. Later I tried installing my copy of McAfee but halfway through, the pc just freezes. Running two antivirus softwares concurrently on the same pc is generally a bad idea. I didn't remove TrendMicro cause it'll mean I'll have to re-install it again later, meaning I have to ask for the cd or worst find the web address to install it from their server. I'm pretty sure they don't know where the TrendMicro cd is or what's the address in the server.

12:00 pm

By this time I started cursing and swearing quietly inside my head. While browsing the Internet for some online virus scan I found out what probably caused all the viruses and the spywares in the first place. Looks like somebody lurves to visit porn sites at work! You pervert @#$%&*!. I felt like nak campak jer pc tu kat bawah but come to think of it, people normally don't like someone else throwing their 3000 ringgit pc around let alone out the window. So I continued working quietly and forget about doing anything drastic to my client's pc. So typical of them using the internet to visit unruly websites and downloading just about anything (wallpapers, screensavers, e-mail attachments) without even thinking what it could do to their pc. The owner even had the audacity to tell me: "pasang antivirus yang bagus sikit la, yang tu tak cukup power - asyik kena virus ngan spyware je.." Well, it wouldn't be polite to blurt it out to his face what i think of him so I just grinned a little and get on with my job.

12:35 pm

I came to the conclusion that his pc is beyond repair and needs to be formatted again.Also finished scanning the pc and found out that their main server is also infected with a few hundred viruses. Looks like I have to clean up their server first before I can do anything with his pc. Since most pcs in the company is connected to the server, I'm pretty sure most of them are infected. Gawd this is getting heavy.

1:00 pm

My tummy is growling. The only restaurant in sight is the one located next door. I joined some of their staff for lunch since they asked. WHAT! NO CHICKEN? Apparently the cook didn't include chicken on the menu today or maybe I just come to early. So I end up having beef rendang instead. I'm so tired of eating beef nowadays but if not I would have to eat fish.. yucks!

2:00 pm

Zohor and up to the server room. I was shocked to learn that their are still using Windows NT Server. Like my great grandma used to use that OS a few decades ago but nobody uses that on their server anymore today! Furthermore their McAfee Netshield antivirus programme was never updated so it's quite useless. No wonder all the viruses ar having a ball on their network.

2:15 pm

Can't update the antivirus on their server. Somehow it couldn't connect to the McAfee's FTP site. Managed to update McAfee on their server using the Streamyx pc next to it though. Started scanning for viruses, 1870 files scanned and counting.

2:34 pm

Soooooo cold in the server room and I can't simply turn down the air cond just like that. It's like I'm stuck here in Antartica with only my shirts on. 5600 files scanned so far. No idea how long this will take. Think I'll read some more blogs and pretend to be Cicakman.

This is how it looks like inside the server room. Happy feet even came long to keep me company.

4:09 pm

Busted! Guess my acting as Cicakman got a bit too far. My IP address must have given me away :P .This cold server room must have affected my brain.

5:25 pm

74500 freaking files scanned and still counting! This has to stop. I hate leaving my work halfway through but else I'll have to wait for like a few more hours. Not to mention I'll have to format that guy's pc and re-install windows, office and everything. I'll finish by midnight if I'm lucky.

5:33 pm

Thank God for Bujal! I called him and he said I could just leave and let him take care of everything later next week. Bujal is like very close with this company so he came here all the time to fix stuff. So I packed my stuff and were ready to leave. Plus the client's office closes at 6:00 pm anyway, there's no way I could finish my work there today.

5:35 pm

Got a call from another associate company in Bukit Damansara. Said something about fixing their notebook. ARE YOU CRAZY?? It's already 5:30 and I got to pick up my wife by 6. So I said I could come on Thursday but he said it's a personal notebook so I can't come during office hours. In the end I said I'll try my best to come. Truth is I don't really wanna go cause it would mean I had to traverse through LDP to Damansara Heights which is really insane during rush hours like this. Sure stuck in traffic jam one.

6:03 pm

Sure enough I'm currently stuck in traffic jam near Kelana Jaya. Called the company in Damansara Heights meaning to say I won't make it but somehow my tongue said something else like I'm coming there now, just wait a bit more ya.."

6:12 pm

Made it safe and sound to Damansara Heights. Turned out it's the CEO's pc that needed fixing. Lost it's soundcard driver. Download the river from, install and fix the printer connection at another pc.

6:28 pm

Finished my job and the CEO said "Jom I belanja Domino's Pizza kat bawah". Tempting but I said no thanks since I really have to pick up wifey before she turns ballistic. Maybe next time.

Fuel cost from Subang to Damansara Heights = RM6.00, fixing his notebook and the printer connection = free, gaining his trust and making him owe me one = priceless.

7:15 pm

Stopped at a mosque somewhere near Jalan 222. Just in time for my Asar prayer. Forgive me God, should have done it earlier.

7:30 pm

Finally pick up wifey at Wisma O'connors. Lucky for me she's in a good mood today.

8:15 pm

Pick up Adam and got home in Serdang.

9:10 pm

Have dinner with family.

9:45 pm

Damn, I left my 2GB thumb drive at Damansara Heights.

And that's what my typical day looks like. .

Music of the day

Lifehouse - Blind

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
and still I have the pain I have to carry
a past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
only in hopes of dreaming
that everything would be like is was before
but nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
they disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

after all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me died when I let you go

after all this time
would you ever wanna leave it
maybe you could not believe it
that my love for you was blind
but I couldn't make you see it
couldn't make you see it
that I loved you more than you will ever know
a part of me died when I let you go
and I loved you more than you'll ever know
a part of me dies when I let you go

McDonald's days

For four years from 2000 to 2004, I worked as a part time crew at McDonald's next to Uda Ocean in KL.

from left Syukri, Manesa, Amir and moi

Four years of working there, I learnt a lot of stuff especially about the inner working of McDonald's and the store operation. I also learned some important lesson on life. How hard it is to earn a living for yourself and valuable lessons on love and friendship. It was there also where I met my other half, Sharifah Haslinda.

Linda like the first time I met her

I started working on March 2000. I was specifically looking for a job at any McDonald's at that time. Probably because I liked McD very much and prefer them over the other fast food joints. There was no McDonald's outlet yet in Serdang back then and the one at Mines had no vacancy so I rode around town (Kajang to KL) with my bike looking for a McDonald's restaurant. I went to Jalan Silang, Wisma Thrifty, Amcorp Mall, Sunway Pyramid, Dayabumi and several more before ending my search that day at Uda Ocean KL. I was tired like hell that day so I thought this would be my last try. I still remember my interview with Abang Sudin the assistant store manager that fine evening. My hand was still in bandages from my first bike accident so he must have felt sorry for me back then.

Don't i look like a school boy with that ugly shirt and tie?

All the other McDonald's told me to fill up the application form and said they'll call me if there's any vacancy. But at that Uda Ocean branch, Abang Sudin held an impromptu interview with me there and then. I'm pretty sure there's no vacancy at the store at that time but Abang Sudin was one of those people who's really good at judging people and knows a quality signing when he sees one (like me :) ). So we chatted for a while and he asked if I can work with my hand still like that. I said of course, it's just a little scratch and it'll heal in no time. The truth was my hand still hurt like hell and it's another two week before I took out the bandages. Guess I needed the money that desperately back then.

Linda together with one of our favourite manager Piah

I was hired on the spot by Abang Sudin and started working like 2 days later. Although the pay was dirt cheap, at least I get to eat for free once a day. And if I do closing, I get to eat a little bit more (depending on who's the manager in charge). I learned a lot of stuff about a McDonald's restaurant operation and soon I know everything about McDonald's like the back of my hand. Although the store was supposed to be air-conditioned, it's always hot and humid in the kitchen. That's where I spent most of my time at. Of course sometimes I took care of the lobby but never the counter. Abang Sudin thought my dashing good look would distract the customers ha ha! Truth was, I was never confident talking to people so I just avoided manning the counter all together.

My friend Siti Nur Kamisah with that manager who got sack cause he err, borrowed too much from the counter - Fazly.

It's a common knowledge that McDonald's makes the best burger and fries around. My favourite McD menu would be a double cheeseburger or a prosperity burger. The fried chicken used to taste awful but after they started preparing the chicken in the store, it tastes slightly better now. My housemates would look forward for me coming home from closing shifts cause they knew I would always bring back leftovers food from the store. My managers are generally kind and most of them would let us take back unsold food stuff home. Only a handful of them like most of the Store Managers or some goody two-shoe managers won't let us do that and they'd rather throw them away than let us have them.

Still great friends: Manesa

I was living with my UPM housemates in Taman Desa Serdang then, some 24 km away from the store so I had to commute to and fro some 3-4 days a week on my bike through rain or shine. It took an average of 18 to 25 minutes to get there though with my trusted bike. Working right smack in the middle of KL has it's share of benefit like for example I get to know a lot of the roads and places in KL from my experience visiting numerous McDonald's store getting stuff for the store.

And we had these crew meeting every month so that we can eat and hang out and listen to some mundane stuff from the management and sometimes we played some silly games together.

Look what we made those poor kids do while playing games at a crew meeting. I'd rather die than wear those ha ha ha!

Sometimes the crew meeting was held outdoors usually at Taman Tasik Perdana nearby. Most of the crew there was younger than me and some were just out of school but I mixed well with all of them regardless cause it's no harm making friends with everybody rite?

Linda joined the store about a year later. She just looked so cute in her uniform. She didn't like me very much at first cause I was this scary bald guy who kept bugging her. And then several month later she started to accept me after my relentless persistence (and charm) and they rest, like they say is history.

My good buddy and partner in crime: Zaidi

I made a few good friends at McDonald's like Zaidi, Manesa and Zack. Even after 6 years we still keep in touch and sometimes hang out together at the store. Working at a fast food restaurant such as McD requires a lot of hard work and sometimes we just get so tired and grumpy not to mention dealing with a few of those crappy/fussy managers. But the gang and I always had a way to cheer up the place you know, cracking jokes, helping each other out and watching our backs. We often work together on the closing shift and I would always bring my audio cds to the store and play it really loud through the PA system and we would sing out loud while working our ass out at the store. We were still tired in the end but at least we're tired and happy. I could never forget those late night singing/fun times together at the store.

The gang at Gabai waterfall in Hulu Langat

Today, I'm still grateful to McDonald's Uda Ocean for giving me a valuable experience while working there all those time. It was a life changing experience for me and had I worked somewhere else, I might have not met Linda and found the love of my life. Thank you McD, thanks for the experience - I'm still lovin' every minute of it.

Liverpool 2 Chelsea 0

Just come back from 105 minutes of watching a terrific performance from Liverpool who beat Premiership Champions Chelsea 2 goal to nil. Though my butt hurts a little right now after sitting so long on that plastic chair,at least it's worth every minute of it. I'm always nervous when watching Liverpool taking on the big clubs especially the top 3 (United-Chelsea-Arsenal). I still recall half the time I watched them live on tv, we will always loose and that got me thinking I'm a jinx to the club or something. But tonight I know that it's just purely superstitious cause we beat them fair and square while I'm watching every minute of it. Dirk Kuyt opened the scoreline just after 4 minutes and Jermaine Pennant finished it off with a fantastic volley past their goal keeper on the 18th minute. Chelsea never recovered from the shock of those early goals and didn't make much of an impact in the second half. I can't wait to brag at my Chelsea-supporting office mates on Monday.

Jermaine Pennant celebrating his goal against Chelsea

Sunrise over Serdang

Aaah what a feeling. Woke up this morning just in time to watch the sunrise over Serdang's skyline. The birds are singing and chirping happily. Adam got up early today and even he's in a good mood this morning. all smiley and cheerful. Hey you know what? We're good again! This time I decided to give in. It took a lot of courage (and balls) to relent. But the important thing is we're good again. Now there's only one more person to reconcile with :)

Sunrise over Sri Serdang

Top 10 motivational songs

When I'm feeling in the dumps (like today), there's nothing like listening to a selection of uplifting, motivational songs like these to lift up my spirit . So here it is, my top 10 all time favourite motivational songs.

1. Kiroro - Mirae
This OST from the film Final Fantasy would be just an ordinary song if not for this home-made video I made last year.

2. Gerry & The Pacemaker - You'll never walk alone
The official anthem for the greatest football club on the planet.

3. XPDC - Semangat yang hilang
"Semangat yang hilang, kita cari pulang.."

4. All American Rejects - Move along
"And even when your hope is gone, move along, move along just to make it through.."

5. My Chemical Romance - I'm not okay
Yup, I'm still not okay.

6. Monty Phyton - Always look on the bright side of life
Been dark and gloomy here all this week.

7. Cake - I will survive
Yeah, I survived worse heartbreak before. This is nothing.

8. My Chemical Romance - Welcome to the black parade
"We'll carry on, and though you're broken and defeated, your memory will carry on.."

9. Shaden - Dunia belum berakhir
That's right man, it's not the end of the world!

10. Fugees - No woman no cry
The title says it all.

Como ahorrar una vida

Ahora sé verdad como cuáles ella es. No sé lo que agravié ayer. Ella es realmente dura de entender. Un minuto ella es aceptable y ella iban después locos. Pero ayer, ésa ahora es manera de tratar a un amigo. Me ofenden profundamente. No merezco seguramente todo el eso. No me dejaré ir abajo de tan bajo. Tengo dignidad y honor. Si eso cómo ella lo desea que esté muy bien.

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life..

Music of the day

The Fray - How to save a life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life


The Fray's - How to save a life is my current super-duper favourite song in the entire universe right now so enjoy!

Goodbye Kak Ita

Yesterday, an unfortunate turn of event happened at my office. For some reason, our HRA staff Kak Ita resigned on a 24 hours notice. From what I heard she had a major argument with our boss, heated words were exchanged and tempers flared. Next thing you know she's gone by lunch time. I don't want to comment about the incident but her departure is a great loss to the company. Now who will process our salary and claims? God knows when our salary will come in this month and the next until they found a replacement, sigh. Whatever it is I'd like to say so long and farewell to Kak Ita, you'd been a good colleague and friend. Your absence will be missed. No else make as much noise such as you and the 2nd floor will be quiet without you. Goodbye Kak Ita and we wish you luck in whatever you do.

Diari seorang lelaki

This song is dedicated to wifey, Linda. I know I've been a jerk and not the best of husband or dad but hey that's just me. Give me time to change okay? You just wait a little more while okay? 8 days the most. "Bergaduh, selisih, buat kita sempurna. Janganlah dipendam, luahkan perasaan. Tiada benci irihati itulah destinasi..".



Last Monday I went to see this house we're thinking of renting in Taman Universiti, Seri Kembangan. The house is two storey but it's quite small on the inside. The place is quite a mess with rubbish strewn all over the place and the owner gave no hint of wanting to clean up the place a bit. Maybe he has no time or he's just simply lazy. The rent is very reasonable though and from what I understand we don't have to pay any deposit except for electric and water and that's like too good to be true! Either he's really desperate or there's a catch somewhere. Guess we'll have to wait and see. Personally I'd prefer a home in Bandar Kinrara since it's closer to Linda's office and not too far away from mine either. I can like send her to work every morning and pick her up later in the evening. We found a lot of vacant homes at BK4/10 and 9 but the problem is there's not a single For Rent sign anywhere. What's wrong with all these people man? They don't want money or what? This weekend we'll probably go there one last time to see if there's any vacancy.

I received another interview letter from SPA again last week. It's my third interview offer for the last 12 month. The thing is, I've had a few forgettable experience with government work interviews before. They call you up for an interview, and give you so much hope like they're so impressed with you during the interview and BANG! a few weeks later you get this sorry-but-you're-not-good-enough-to-work-with-us acknowledgement letter. Interviews I can handle, it's the dissapointment that sucks. Most probably I won't go to this interview at the end of the month. I'm quite content with my job right now and it's their fault they didn't hire me then in the first place. I could have been great over there you know and made a massive contribution to the people and country but now it's their waste ha ha!.

On a lighter note, my good friend Bujal is currently on a rigorous dieting regime. He fasts almost every single day of the week and only ate like twice a day. He said he wanted to loose some serious weight before his wedding so that he won't break the pelamin - ha ha ha! can you believe that? He may be a little chubby and unattractive but he's got a kind heart inside. His knowledge of computers and servers is way beyond most IT expert I know and he's always generous to share his knowledge with me or anyone else for that matter. I've learned loads of stuff from him ever since I started working here. But I can't ask him to go to lunch to together now, it's either he's fasting or he's still not hungry! I have to saspek you la Bujal, but believe me it won't work. You might shed a few kilos right now but once you're tired of all of that, you'll start eating like normal again and the kilos will come back. Eating less alone will not do, you've got to exercise man! Anyway I wish you all the best with your diet. Just don't forget us when you're slim and handsome someday arr!

Hello handsome!

Last week I was involved with another relocation exercise with Puncak Niaga. This time it's not as much work as the previous one. Only a total of 189 boxes to deal with. Still, there's one more department over there at See Hoy Chan who haven't moved yet so I guess we'll be waiting for the next exercise then. Eventhough I didn't have to carry a single damn box it's still tiring to go up and down the building making sure everything is counted for. I suppose in a small company like ours, you just do whatever the boss asks you to, no questions asked. Sigh.

Me and the guys sharing a light moment together

Music of the day

Hinder - Lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late
It's kinda hard to talk right now
Honey why you crying is everything okay
I gotta whisper cause I can't be too loud
Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
let her die,
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And yes I dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me will it start a fight
No, I don't think she has a clue
Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
let her die,
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak
let her die,
never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel
(let it die,I never wanna say goodbye)
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late


Hinder's Lip of an angel is one of those songs that I don't pay attention much too at first. I thought they sound very much like a Nickelbeck wannabe so I didn't like their song that much. But then after hearing this song a couple dozen of time I thought hey this song is quite good and not bad at all. The words have a very deep meaning like I could almost relate to.

Oooooooh so creepy..



Today I’m gonna start writing about my past memories, all 27 years of them. The good, the bad, the memorable and the forgettable times. I feel it’s important that I write about my history from now on before I forgot. I ain’t got no flash memory you know and if I didn’t write soon, all might be loss forever. That’s why I thought, why not write my memories here on my blog so that all my friends and my kid(s) could read it someday (and have a good laugh at things I did). I have so many memories of my school days I could write a book about them! Maybe I would but for starters, let’s put them on my humble little blog.

I know I should start at the beginning but today I feel like writing only about my high school days. I went to Sekolah Menengah Sains Machang, which translates to Machang Science Secondary School situated about 40 km from my home in Pasir Mas and also the same distance from Kota Bharu, the capital of Kelantan. Sekolah Menengah Sains Machang (Smach for short) is a full government sponsored boarding school (Sekolah Berasrama Penuh/SBP). During my days there were only 40 such schools nationwide and being able to get into one is a big deal back then. This was because such schools can only accept a handful of student every year so the competition for admission is very stiff. I never applied for this school, instead it’s the teachers of my primary school who submit our names to the Education Dept. Every year, they send in a few dozen names of potential candidates and I guess that year in 1993, I was among the lucky ones. I said lucky because I feel I wasn’t that good in primary school to warrant a place in such a prestigious institution. Yes I did get straight As for my UPSR but so did 38 others. Anyway, my family was very happy that I got accepted into Smach. There’s only two such school in Kelantan, the other one is SM Faris Petra in Kota Bharu.

It’s my first experience living away from my family and understandably I was nervous and a bit scared. The next five years was an unforgettable experience for me and also for all my school mates for that matter.

Going to a high school in the east coast is really tough. Going to a boarding school is even tougher and I assure you it’s not for the faint hearted. Kids in Kelantan or Terengganu are a lot different from those who hail from the west coast like Selangor or Johore or Kedah. Here it’s the Jungle’s Law, the survival of the fittest. Anyone outside of Kelantan who went to school there will experience a huge culture shock and many of them it’s not exactly a pleasant experience. I don’t really want to bad mouth the place I grew up in but the truth is, it’s tough going to school there.

Orientation week

I survived the orientation week in one piece. The school had this informal tradition of ‘sending back’ freshies who they think don’t deserve to stay at the school. You see during the orientation week, all the new kids have to behave really good and get signatures from their seniors to prevent them from being sent home. The kid with the lowest signature will be send back come weekend. Therefore all of us tried our best to get signatures from our seniors. Naturally, many of them seniors waste no time exploiting this opportunity to make us do errands for them before we get our signatures. Some of us (including me) have heard of rumours from a few of our seniors saying it’s just a joke and I personally didn’t believe any of them either. I thought it’s just not logical for the school to send back students just like that. Still I tried to get a few signatures and about half of my signature paper is filled towards the weekend. The entire school including all the teachers played along with this prank you know so near the end it seemed almost real!

So come Friday, I called home – teary eyed and sad telling mother that I might be sent home this weekend. Forgive me for being a disappointment to you, I guess I didn’t try hard enough. You can’t blame us really, we were young and naïve and it’s a first week in high school man and already we might be send back! For the Malay Kebudayaan (performance night) we were divided into groups and had to give a performance each. My group decided to perform a dance to the tune of a popular Malaysian rap group back then, 4U2C. Yeah I was a fan of 4U2C then (although I’m ashamed to admit that now!) so I volunteered to take part in the act. You see I was rather chubby and cute when I was 13 so just imagine me dancing to the beat of rap music on stage. The stage floor must have shaken violently by my weight. We practiced for 2 days but on the last day I had a fever and couldn’t possibly perform the next day so they replaced me with another boy. I was disappointed but come to think of it, I’d probably laughed myself hoarse seeing my performance that night. :)

Finally the weekend comes and we had this morning assembly where they announce the names of those who didn’t make the cut. The whole school was there and all our seniors were clapping and cheering and booing making it a festive like atmosphere and frighteningly REAL to us! We had to pack our bags and all and brought our stuff to the assembly place. The school bus were already fired up and ready to go as they announce the names one by one. Each of the unlucky kids was crying as they board the bus. I was relieved to escape the whole ordeal and soon enough found out that it was al just one big prank. Those we did board the bus were taken for an outing at the nearest town in Machang and returned back a few hours later. So that’s how we do orientation, Smachian way at my school. And they kept the tradition going the next year, and the next and the next and I wonder if they still do that today, hmm . A bit cruel you might say but that’s their way of nurturing our love for the school. My school days are a far cry from what you see on High School the Musical. Even so, if I were given another chance to do it all over again, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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Music of the day

Ungu - Tercipta untukku

menatap indahnya senyuman di wajahmu
membuatku terdiam dan terpaku
mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah
saat kau peluk mesra tubuhku
banyak kata
yang tak mampu ku ungkapkan
kepada dirimu

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
di setiap langkah dan meyakiniku
kau tecipta untukku
sepanjang hidupku

aku ingin engkau slalu
hadir dan temani aku
di setiap langkah dan meyakiniku
kau tecipta untukku
mesti waktu akan mampu
memanggil seluruh ragaku
ku ingin kau tahu
ku slalu milikmu
yang mencintaiku
sepanjang hidupmu

Walk on

Yesterday was a sad day for legions of Liverpool FC supporters world wide. Just 3 days after we were dumped out of the FA Cup by Arsenal at home, the team had a 6-3 beating by Arsenal also at Anfield. Of course we were disappointed. People used to call it Fortress Anfield a few decades ago. Now it's more like the hut of Anfield since we've been beaten there so many times already.

My idol and inspiration, captain fantastic: Steven Gerard (right)

It's easy to point fingers and put the blame on the manager, Rafa Benitez and demand his head on the chopping block. But had we done that every time we lost, we'd probably never experience something like Instanbul 2005 . I still remember vividly the night (and morning) of Istanbul 2005. Just getting to the final was a incredible feat by itself since we were never expected to beat the likes of money-laden Chelsea or start-studded Juventus along the way. We we're definitely underdogs back then. Most people it's sheer luck that we even get to the final. But luck didn't play any part on that unforgettable night. I watched with grim faces as we were trailing 3 to nil to AC Milan at half time. I felt like going to bed there and then and dare not watch any more my favourite team being soundly beaten by Milan. I almost gave up hope of us winning anything but something made me stay up that morning and watch the team turn around the game and come back to equalize to 3 all by the final whistle. And then when we finally won on penalties, I was estactic! Never in my life had I felt so happy for anything. I screamed and cheered when Jerzy Dudek saved that final penalty (and woke up my baby son in the process) and cried tears of joy as we sang along to You'll Never Walk Alone at the end. Absolutely fantastic.

UEFA Champions League Champions 2005

And back to the present day. I don't think Liverpool is going to win the Premiership this season looking at United and Chelsea's incredible form and consistency. I pray that we would beat Barcelona in the Champions League next and make it all the way to the final and Make Us Dream again.

A true Liverpool fan and supporter would stay through thick and thin, joy and despair and not desert the team when they're losing. I knew lot of people around me who started supporting Manchester United when they were winning a lot of titles and cups in the 90s only to change to Arsenal when they start losing. Today a lot of people supports Chelsea ever since Mr Abromovich bought success with millions of his rubbles. And then some people I knew supported Real Madrid just because they bought David Beckham for goodness sake! I've been supporting the Reds ever since my school days, whether or not they won a cup or two or just finish the season empty handed with a dismal position in the league. I've supported them all the way in 2005 and I will definitely support them after that 6-3 thrashing by Arsenal.

My mates singing "You'll never walk alone"

Like one supporter said:

"Any other team 4-1 down at half time would have seen a half empty ground for the second half, and at 5-1 down the manager would have probably been sitting on the bench on his own! Not us though, we stayed to the end and we sang our song. It's what makes us unique and sets us apart from the rest. When the players take a beating like they did tonight we show them that they are not alone and they'll never walk alone. There's no other club like it."

Chesil, message boards

It's not a disaster, it's more like a setback and we'll keep on walking with hopes in our heart..

10 things you don't know about me

Following this week's theme of listing stuff on your blogs, I also have a list here for ya all to see.

10 things I bet you my 50 bucks you don't know about me.

1. I don't eat most type of fish except for salmons or if you take out all the bones for me first.

2. Blame it on my parent, but I didn't wear underwear until I'm like 10 years old.

3. I had my first wet dream at 14 years of age with Fauziah Latiff , and my wife lurves to tease me about this every time her song is on the air. It's not like I'm a fan of her or something and I can't exactly control who I dream of can I?

4. I absolutely love the rain, it gives me an enormous sense of well-being. I love the 'fresh' feeling it gives after a downpour, like the earth is washed away of all the dirts and impurity. Also because of the fact I was born in November which is coincidentally the rainy season so when it starts to rain all the time I know my birthday is just around the corner.

5. I used to be a tough guy and don't easily shed my tears for anything. But since my baby boy was born, I became this sensitive dude who easily got teary eyed when seeing terrible things or touching moments.

6. I learned to drive a car first at 17 got my licence the next year but only know how to ride a bike 4 years later.

7. Kurt Cobain had huge influence on me while I grow up. So much that when your hear me talking like very lazy-ish and hard to comprehend, you know where I got that habit.

8. I'm not a big fan of coffee and only drink it when I'm at people's place just to be polite. Give me tea or Milo anytime.

9. I lost a few teeth following a terrible accident somewhere along Gua Musang when I was 21. That's what happened when you don't listen to your mom.

10. I love the number 24 and it's like my favourite/lucky number. Maybe because I was born on the 24th?

And now you know.

Music of the day

All American Rejects - It ends tonight

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

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Oops I did it again

Oh yeah I did it again. Me and my big mouth. Should have been more careful with my words. Now she's totally pissed off.

It's all his fault really. Why can't you be green or brown like every other normal dinosaur? Else I wouldn't have thought of that joke. I hate you Barney.

p/s: I'm not losing my sleep again because of this, like T.I said: u don't come i ain't gonna die

Listen baby, I don't wanna ruin your plan
But if you got a friend, try to reason if you can
Cause your girls real wild throw your hands up high
Wanna come kick it wit a stand up guy
You don't really wanna let the chance go by
Because you ain't been seen wit a man so fly
Friend so fly I can go fly
Private, cause I handle mine

Top 20 pop songs for 2006

Top 20 Pop songs for 2006

Contrary to popular believe, I also listens to many other genres of music beside rock. Why limit myself to one type of music when I can enjoy R&B, Hip hop, Jazz, Ballad, Latin, World music or even dangdut? In another word, I listen to all songs that's good, regardless of its genre. So here it is, my top 20 pop songs for 2006.

01 Mas que nada - Sergio Mendez featuring the Black Eyed Peas
02 They - Jem
03 My love - Justin Timberlake
04 Lose control - Missy Elliot
05 Pump it - Black Eyed Peas
06 Tokyo drift - Teriyaki boys
07 Fergalicious - Fergie
08 Say something - Mariah Carey
09 Wait a minute - Pussy Cat Dolls
10 We belong together - Mariah Carey
11 Without you - Same Same & Jacylin Victor
12 Cho large - Teriyaki boys
13 Six days remix - Dj shadow feat Mos Def
14 Quando quando quando - Michael Buble & Nelly Furtado
15 Cha cha - Chelo
16 Promiscuous girl - Nelly Furtado
17 Diamonds are forever- Kanye West
18 Home - Michael Buble
19 One thing - Amerie
20 Feeling good - Michael Buble

Top 20 modern rock songs for 2006

Top 20 Modern rock chart for 2006

Here they are. My 20 favourite modern rock songs for 2006.

1 It ends tonight - All American Rejects
2 Perfect situation - Weezer
3 Crumbs - Disagree
4 Cruel to be kind - Letters to Cleo
5 I'm not okay - My Chemical Romance
6 Dirty little secret - All American Rejects
7 Accidentally in love - Counting crows
8 Welcome to the black parade - My Chemical Romance
9 I don't want to be - Gavin DeGraw
10 You and me - Lifehouse
11 Where'd you go - Fort Minor
12 Wake me up when September ends - Greenday
13 Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional
14 I dare you to move - Switchfoot
15 Operator (line is dead) - Lo
16 Helena - My Chemical Romance
17 Move along - All American Rejects
18 Beverly Hills - Weezer
19 Believe me - Fort Minor
20 12-51 - The Strokes

Never walk alone

Dedicated to the greatest football club in the entire universe. May you kick Arsenal's ass this coming fixture.

Gerry & The Pacemakers - You'll never walk alone

When you walk through a storm

Hold your head up high
And don't be afraid of the dark.
At the end of a storm is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of a lark.
Walk on through the wind,
Walk on through the rain,

Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone.
Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart
And you'll never walk alone,
You'll never, ever walk alone


Dias felice

El Oh éstos es los días mis amigos. He estado en un humor muy bueno últimamente. Las cosas son multa justa que va. Adán casi se ha recuperado de su eczema. La prima es justa alrededor de la esquina (pienso). Nos estamos moviendo en un newplace pronto. Conseguimos un nuevo paseo. Puedo finalmente fijar cuadros al everytime del blogger. Los cielos son verde y la hierba es azul. Discurso de cuál, de Hasrina y de I permaneciéndose en contacto últimamente. Está tan fresco que podríamos ser buenos amigos como esto. Fueron idos los días en que era 21 años estúpidos/no maduros/locos/moronic del moron que es obsesivo con ella. Me he movido hoy junto con mi vida y así que verdad ella. Teníamos nuestro muy ahora poseemos a familias y la trato con respecto extremo como un amigo, una esposa y madre. Ahora, si solamente Linda podría entender. Ella todavía no aprobó al parecer cualesquiera de esto. Sé que debo todavía ganar su confianza más completa después ese incidente de largo plazo hace. Apenas deseo decir u que no soy esa clase de hombre más. Admito, yo entonces era parte posteriora traviesa. Ahora soy un hombre cambiante. Sí, todavía tengo amigos femeninos pero son justos que - solamente los amigos. Como dije una docena las épocas antes, si realmente deseara encontrar otro, habría hecho eso ahora. Pero ves, yo no. Toda que pido ti es confianza. Y si puedes confiar en que es la persona tú supone para pasar el resto tu vida con, después de nosotros estar en apuro.

Music of the day

Counting Crows - A long December

A long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember the last thing that you said as you were leaving
Oh the days go by so fast

And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think that I could be forgiven
I wish you would
(Na na na yeah)

The smell of hospitals in winter
And the feeling that it's all a lot of oysters, but no pearls
All at once you look across a crowded room
To see the way that light attaches to a girl

And it's one more day up in the canyons
And it's one more night in Hollywood
If you think you might come to California
I think you should
(Na na na yeah)

Drove up to Hillside Manor sometime after 2 a.m.
And talked a little while about the year
I guess the winter makes you laugh a little slower
Makes you talk a little lower about the things you could not show her

And it's been a long December and there's reason to believe
Maybe this year will be better than the last
I can't remember all the times I tried to tell myself
To hold on to these moments as they pass

And it's one more day up in the canyon
And it's one more night in Hollywood
It's been so long since I've seen the ocean
I guess I should
(Na na na yeah)


My Savvy review (sorry no pictures)

After getting myself a new job, my wife and I had decided to get ourselves a brand new ride.After much debate, we decided on a Proton Savvy. Personally I'd prefer a second hand Wira but Linda had her reservations on second hand cars. So Savvy it is. It's not a 350z but it'll do for us.

I choose black cause it's one of my favourite colours. My other favourite colour is red but I think for a ride, black is a lot cooler. This mini car costs us some 40000 ringgit (i think) over a 9 year period of installment.

Call me unlucky, but this car has given me trouble ever since the first few hours of delivery. First the central alarm system is not working, meaning I can't use the remote to lock/unlock the car. Then the transmission is faulty, I can't change into reverse. Imagine how i felt when I had to reverse the car with the help of my friends in front of my office.

I went to dealer and the service centre about half a dozen time to fix that problem. Only after they changed the linkage rod to the transmission did my car works fine until today. Proton cars are good, it's the QC that sucks, big time.

Overall, I'm quite satisfied with my Savvy. The fuel consumption is good and the car is great around curves and while cornering.

Adam has sportingly agreed to become our model for the day

There's ample room up front but the passenger seat is rather small compared to say a Perodua Myvi.

The Renault engine was alright and my fastest speed so far is about 150km/h. Not that i can't go any faster but I plan to use this car for a long time u know. Don't want to blow up the engine or anything.

Like every other Proton cars, the Savvy uses a Clarion stereo system. CD player, FM - no mp3, u know the usual stuff. The air cond is cool, I felt really cold already only at number 2. Maybe because it's brand new. There's something wrong with the glove compartment. I had to shove it hard to close it. Don't tell me that's normal with new cars?

The dealer gave us this multimedia computer speaker and a free - whole car tinted film voucher. When we went to the tint shop, we found out the free tint is way too dark and no way it's gonna pass any JPJ/Police inspection. So we end up buying the 500 bucks greenish tint which is 300 more out of our own pocket. I got the feeling we were pretty much ripped off by the dealer/tint shop owner.

As a summary, the Proton Savvy is a great car provided you get it from the right dealer. I'm quite happy with the car at the moment and it passed the balik kampung trip, all 1100km with flying colours.